if you can't handle my PINKNESS, then you shouldn't be here

if you can't handle my PINKNESS, then you shouldn't be here
loves all things pink


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I live life enjoying as much as possible by enjoying the outdoors, savouring dinner with the family, having fun with friends, or seeing my little sister smile. I understand the value of a penny and that hard work pays off. I am very ambitious and driven and have set goals for myself to achieve. I can be very serious but yet I have a fun personality to have a good time. I feel that life is a huge journey and the key to a successful life is to live in the moment and not dwell on the past! i am an optimist. I'm a hopeless romantic and a dreamer. I love to just go outside and contemplate life while I feel the breeze in my hair and the sun kiss my cheeks! I hope to travel the world one day because there is so much beauty to see in the world. i get bored easily(something i'm not proud of). I am a huge roller coaster and adrenalin junkie and I just love life! i'm a great public speaker. i'm a person who tries to be the best i can be. :D i am also a feminist. a HUGE fan of oprah winfrey. lastly, i'm going to be a history maker.

Friday, 11 May 2012

The filled void

"well... why won't you believe God exists? have you ever wondered why you're living in this world? have you ever ask yourself what is the purpose in life? is it really just to grow to study to work to eat to survive to take care of your parents and die? DO YOU FEEL EMPTY AT THE END OF THE DAY? it's something u cant explain.it's because you don't know of this thing called LOVE. and GOD IS LOVE. when you experience this love, you'll never wanna leave this presence."

I almost cried. I've never been loved so much, I've never loved someone so much.

"You have to KNOW God to love Him"

I loved God as soon as I found Him. He was there with me at my darkest moments and now I'm not going to leave the hand that reached out to me and gave me sanity in the most insane moments.

Yes I will tell the world. I want to shout it out! Let the world know of Your love, Your everlasting love, Your infinite love.

I chose this, I chose You God, to help me, to guide me, to be with me. And I know You love me so.

Thursday, 10 May 2012


I want to talk about something. I want to talk about God actually, about God's presence in my life. Although I don't really know where to start.

I definitely feel blessed.

I feel at peace with myself.

I feel like God has once again done something amazing in my life. I am ever so grateful for everything. It feels GREAT to know that God cares. God cares! Something amazing happened to me today. I asked God for a little but He gave me SO MUCH. :) Now I'm looking forward to tomorrow, and the day after, and the next week, and the next month. GREAT THINGS ARE HAPPENING. All in just one week!  

When you love God with all your heart, you know you are being protected. Somehow or rather, that little voice in you seems like God is talking to you. At least that is how I feel.

I just want to talk, talk about the greatness of God. Even if the whole world turns against me, I won't feel that way because I know God will never give up on me.

God hasn't given up on you either.

I will never be alone as long as I have God by my side.

I may not be the most spiritual, or the person with the least sins, but I do know that NO ONE can take away the relationship I have with God. NO ONE.

Friday, 4 May 2012

Blogging helps me cool off.

AAAAAAH, I'm very sorry about the blog post bomb. Blogging always helps set my mind straight.

What I wanted to say was, I like the independence, I like living on my own. I don't miss home or Johor Bahru. I miss petty things like my bed, and maybe home-cooked meals(but that is a very small matter because I can get Indian food anywhere, and as long as I have a bed to sleep on, then I'm grateful). Maybe this is what I am, maybe I've never been a family person after all. Maybe I'm one of those people who like working from 9-5(workaholics). Maybe. I don't know when I'll start missing them, but I don't think I will miss them anytime soon. I'm enjoying my new-found independence and freedom.

Some people tell me that I can never live on my own because I've never lived on my own before. But hey, GUESS WHAT, there's a first time for everything. I too need to learn how to live on my own, and if I make mistakes, they are MY mistakes which YOU don't have the right to pick on. But I will learn from my mistakes. You don't have to bother. I'm warning you people out there who try to mess with me or my parents' heads saying that there are a lot of dangerous people out there. DO NOT TRY TO MESS WITH ME. I have a few people in mind who are trying to get to my parents' heads saying that it is a dangerous world for a girl to live in and that I belong in my parents' home. I WILL CUT YOU. I am not the kind of girl to listen to this shit. You can talk to my parents about this, but you don't have the GUTS to say in front of me. I AM WARNING YOU RIGHT NOW.

For those of you who don't know, I am in college in the city(Kuala Lumpur). There are a lot of International students here but they do not disturb me at all.


Sometimes I think, if I was a boy, would they treat me differently?

Please, parents, children need your understanding and support. Not for you to create war against them. They need you to trust them. They need you to believe them. They need you to let them do what they do best.

I've made it a point to NEVER have children, because I would never want to treat my children that way. And if I DO have children, they'll always have my support even if I'm not happy with what they're doing, because their happiness matters most. As long as they're happy with what they're doing or what they are, I will be forever grateful to God for such blissful children. I'll never condemn what they're doing, because I love them. Their happiness comes first.

I would teach them the right things. I'd teach them to respect everyone, but to respect themselves most. Self-respect is the most important which shouldn't be sold to anyone. I'd teach them to stand up for others, to stand up against discrimination. I'd teach them to be forever kind.

Maybe that's what humanity is about, forever improving on what your parents were.

walking on a thread.

Nothing is certain that's for sure. My life isn't certain, my future isn't certain. I used to think I had my parents' support, but now I realise that I'm on my own. What is the money when they can't support you for who you are? When they can't accept you for who you are? I thought they had my back, no that's a lie, I've always known that they never supported me, they only want me to be what THEY want me to be.

I am mentally unstable thinking they never wanted me to be whoever I want to be but what they see me as. Sure they think only the best for me, but I'll never be happy if I'm someone I'm not.

Sometimes I think, if I was a boy, would they treat me differently?