I know I can be a better person than this. I'm letting myself falter under change and the ability to adapt. I'm letting the devil inside me take over. And I'm not happy...with myself. It is not difficult really, all it takes is my determination to live a positive lifestyle.
I find that I'm not becoming a better person. I need to be kinder, slower on my judgement, friendlier and most importantly less harsh on myself for when I make a mistake. Yes, I do have self-reflecting thoughts before I go to bed. It helps me identify the things that make me unhappy or unsatisfied.
And right now, I'm only unhappy with myself.
I used to be the girl who could speak up in public without thinking about what others thought about me, I used to be the girl who could walk down the hall with confidence, I used to be the girl who LOVED people first then get to know them.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Sometimes I'm laughing like mad, sometimes I'm at the bottom of the wheel and I find myself cranky and angry at the rest of the world.
I always tell myself "If you have time to whine/complain about something, you have the time to do something about it"
I NEED TO BE THE BETTER PERSON. That's who I am.
And the better person I will be.