I remember how I was kayaking once around the mangrove, and there was a snake on the tree. I remember distinctively what it looked like, black with yellow spots (yes that stupid black and yellow song was playing on my mind at that time), and it was poisonous. Yes I was aware that if you got bitten the kayak people know what to do. In an attempt to show a friend the snake on the tree, I think I got a little excited, because he couldn't see the snake on the branch but I could. I somehow or rather wanted him to see the snake really badly, maybe it was that sense of relativity. You know how you like to be able to relate with people. Yeah.
I don't know how but I think while trying to desperately show him the snake, I wasn't controlling my kayak and started drifting towards the tree. I didn't think much of it at first because I was quite relieved I was under the shadow of the tree. But when I realized I was right under the snake, I panicked.
My heart was beating in my throat. I tried to calm myself down, I really did try. But it was so overwhelming that I started kayaking like a mad woman and everyone knows that if you're not steady while kayaking, the kayak won't really move anywhere. So at that moment I remembered this, and I desperately tried to stay calm. I remember how I couldn't breathe until I was far away from the tree, it felt like forever, the time I was holding my breath.
I think I almost cried, because I was so relieved I was out of danger, although it was probably nothing because the snake was probably sleeping on the branch.
Fear drove me to react in such a way and I was somewhat ashamed I had let fear drive me in such a way because I take pride in the fact that nothing will be able to scare me. Except the supernatural, dangerous animals and dangerous situations. Well, I've gotten over the fear of people, so that's an achievement I can be proud of.
But that moment under the tree, that panicky and my desperately trying to stay calm moment, I will never forget that. It made me rethink of my fears and how it will never actually get me anywhere. It literally didn't get me anywhere, haha, because the kayak hardly moved when I tried kayaking at a really fast pace!
Well, kayaking was fun, although after two hours my arms really hurt and my skin got really red because i was sunburned(especially my nose).